To vlog or not to vlog, insecurities arise
Hmm title sounds like a sequel isnt? well days ago i have been considering investing in a digital camera (kodak easyshare m863) as it can also record HD video so may be good for vloging in sites such as YouTube.
I have quite good ideas for videos and why not i know i am talented when it comes to imagine and write stuff even in the spur of the moment (like comebacks to people) but my biggest insecurity is im fat, yeah... im fat.
Im not ugly, i have been told by womens im good looking and i have a good bearing (not sure i used the right word) but yeah im fat, not that i havent tried to lose weight.. SHUT UP! xD
But yeah cant say my skin is so thick when it comes to my weight, one of the main reasons why i avoided posting my picture on the forums i was Game Master, had enough with morons ignoring i was fat to worsen that for me, specially when people ignore why i gained all this weight (i wasnt fat as a teenager nor as a kid) so no thanks.
Hmm i dont know, probably i will or may not... i think if i do could be a way to prevail over my insecurity and if i dont insecurity wins, but i wonder if it's worth the risk.
he is actually funny, compared to me he is not fat at all, he really said all i have in mind right now, as he said he may be joking and may not, but to me is all i have feeling, peace.
I have quite good ideas for videos and why not i know i am talented when it comes to imagine and write stuff even in the spur of the moment (like comebacks to people) but my biggest insecurity is im fat, yeah... im fat.
Im not ugly, i have been told by womens im good looking and i have a good bearing (not sure i used the right word) but yeah im fat, not that i havent tried to lose weight.. SHUT UP! xD
But yeah cant say my skin is so thick when it comes to my weight, one of the main reasons why i avoided posting my picture on the forums i was Game Master, had enough with morons ignoring i was fat to worsen that for me, specially when people ignore why i gained all this weight (i wasnt fat as a teenager nor as a kid) so no thanks.
Hmm i dont know, probably i will or may not... i think if i do could be a way to prevail over my insecurity and if i dont insecurity wins, but i wonder if it's worth the risk.
he is actually funny, compared to me he is not fat at all, he really said all i have in mind right now, as he said he may be joking and may not, but to me is all i have feeling, peace.
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i get ya on the insecurities. Ive got a ton of baby/preggy fat to loose myself. :) With walking tia to school i walk 10hrs a week... but i don't get all huffy and all over exerted (like fat example in vlog). You can be overweight or obese and still be at the same health level as someone who is underweight. Underweight people also have risks with heart attacks, diabetes etc so...
thing is, you can't make a vlog and not think some dickhead wont come along and call you names for what.. race, hair, nose, skin complexion, let alone weight! Some places do allow to not leave comments, delete comments etc..
At the end of the day you are who you are and they obviously have more low self esteem or hate problems than a "normal" person.
The people you want to be watching your vlogs (if u were 2 make them) would be those who listen/see what you want and connect on a intellectual basis. (but hey if u got a bunch of fan girls that wouldn't hurt, no?! :D )